And I would change everything.

Ever felt like you're never good enough? Like, whatever you do, will never satisfy anyone..not even yourself.

That's me.

Yeah, I admit, I have a problem with myself.

I don't have confidence. No self-esteem...nothing.

Everyday, I wake up trying to be a better person. That's good right?

I try to read more to improve my grammar and English reading skills.

I try to paint and draw to improve my drawing and paint like a proffesional.

I try to exercise to get that " Victoria Secret " body.

I try to learn how to cook to impress my family and my " future " husband someday.

I take care of my skin every day just to feel good about my self.

I try my very best in school just to make my parents proud.

But sometimes, all of that is just not good enough. Never..enough.

I have a problem, I know.

And to be honest, lately, I haven't been feeling good, or y'know, good enough. Heck, I don't remember the last time I've felt good enough, beautiful, or just...worth it.

Hmm, I'm just a teenager with problems.

I don't really get the point of this blog entry haha.

Oh wells, just emptying my heart....did that make sense? blehh.

hmph. Now back to PLL.

Just close your eyes..

Is it bad to be a dreamer? Is it bad to fantasize and dream about your future?

I've always been a dreamer. Dreaming is what gets me through hard times. I know you're probably like, " What the hell is wrong with her?" Yeah, I think about that too.

This might seem funny to you but, I always dream that someday I'll be that one girl that everyone knows, that girl that made her parents so proud, that girl that changed something, at least one thing in her lifetime.

I dream that I'll be a linguist or, fluent in at least one foreign language.
I dream that someday, I'll save a soul.
I dream that I'll make my parents proud of me.
I dream that I'll have my dream job.
I dream that I'll have the body I want.
I dream that I'll be able to paint like famous artists.
I dream that I will be able to achieve a black belt in a type of martial art sport.


That's all I can think of right now.

I have many other dreams that are silly so I won't mention them. ;p

But yeah.

The question is, will I achieve or make one of these dreams come true?

Well, I'll try. I will. Enshallah. I must.

Korean family

I have to blog about this no matter what. 

I just came back from my Korean friends' house. I had such an AMAZING time. 

Ok ok, lemme start at the beginning, I walked in to find house slippers in front of me. Like, Idk, it's not something big I know, but I just got happy. So yeah.

Next thing was, their mum welcomed me with a hug and a Korean snack ( yum!)

Then we kept watching Korean videos and stuff. When it was 6pm, they had dinner already.  I was like .___. 

Their dad came, and then 2 uncles. I was like " okayy...."

They all called me to eat dinner and I saw the typical Korean dinner which consisted of:

- Kimchi

-Kalbi- something.. ( meat)

- White rice ( in a small bowl! I found it cute haha)

- Korean spicy fish soup ( choked on it, but it was delicious. XD)

- Fried vegetables

- Ddoekbokki ( Korean rice cake which was DELICIOUS) 

 I was really shy. I couldn't eat..lol. I felt like I was an outsider..wait, I am lol. But at the same time I felt so happy. Idk. And they kept trying to ask me questions, and I would try to answer them back in Korean - which surprised them LOL ( OH YOU SPEAK KOREAN) 

They did love the cake I bought haha (THANK GOD.)

Haha. 

Then we went to sing at the noraebang ( Korean karoake). Which was so so much fun. We sang to Korean songs for 3 hours straight LOL

I called my mum early because I thought they'd sleep early, and I didn't want to stay late because it would be rude right ?

When the driver came, they were like  " OH WHY, My mum thought you will stay until 12!" 

I told them I didn't want to bother them haha.

After that, they gave me a present. Yes, a present. I was speechless LOL

I'm so keeping the bag LOL

Pocky, Lotte pie, cookies and Korean sweets ( sweet red ginseng)

I thought that was so nice of them. 

Ahh, I'm just so happy.