And I would change everything.

Ever felt like you're never good enough? Like, whatever you do, will never satisfy anyone..not even yourself.

That's me.

Yeah, I admit, I have a problem with myself.

I don't have confidence. No self-esteem...nothing.

Everyday, I wake up trying to be a better person. That's good right?

I try to read more to improve my grammar and English reading skills.

I try to paint and draw to improve my drawing and paint like a proffesional.

I try to exercise to get that " Victoria Secret " body.

I try to learn how to cook to impress my family and my " future " husband someday.

I take care of my skin every day just to feel good about my self.

I try my very best in school just to make my parents proud.

But sometimes, all of that is just not good enough. Never..enough.

I have a problem, I know.

And to be honest, lately, I haven't been feeling good, or y'know, good enough. Heck, I don't remember the last time I've felt good enough, beautiful, or just...worth it.

Hmm, I'm just a teenager with problems.

I don't really get the point of this blog entry haha.

Oh wells, just emptying my heart....did that make sense? blehh.

hmph. Now back to PLL.

Korean family

I have to blog about this no matter what. 

I just came back from my Korean friends' house. I had such an AMAZING time. 

Ok ok, lemme start at the beginning, I walked in to find house slippers in front of me. Like, Idk, it's not something big I know, but I just got happy. So yeah.

Next thing was, their mum welcomed me with a hug and a Korean snack ( yum!)

Then we kept watching Korean videos and stuff. When it was 6pm, they had dinner already.  I was like .___. 

Their dad came, and then 2 uncles. I was like " okayy...."

They all called me to eat dinner and I saw the typical Korean dinner which consisted of:

- Kimchi

-Kalbi- something.. ( meat)

- White rice ( in a small bowl! I found it cute haha)

- Korean spicy fish soup ( choked on it, but it was delicious. XD)

- Fried vegetables

- Ddoekbokki ( Korean rice cake which was DELICIOUS) 

 I was really shy. I couldn't eat..lol. I felt like I was an outsider..wait, I am lol. But at the same time I felt so happy. Idk. And they kept trying to ask me questions, and I would try to answer them back in Korean - which surprised them LOL ( OH YOU SPEAK KOREAN) 

They did love the cake I bought haha (THANK GOD.)

Haha. 

Then we went to sing at the noraebang ( Korean karoake). Which was so so much fun. We sang to Korean songs for 3 hours straight LOL

I called my mum early because I thought they'd sleep early, and I didn't want to stay late because it would be rude right ?

When the driver came, they were like  " OH WHY, My mum thought you will stay until 12!" 

I told them I didn't want to bother them haha.

After that, they gave me a present. Yes, a present. I was speechless LOL

I'm so keeping the bag LOL

Pocky, Lotte pie, cookies and Korean sweets ( sweet red ginseng)

I thought that was so nice of them. 

Ahh, I'm just so happy.