And I would change everything.

Ever felt like you're never good enough? Like, whatever you do, will never satisfy anyone..not even yourself.

That's me.

Yeah, I admit, I have a problem with myself.

I don't have confidence. No self-esteem...nothing.

Everyday, I wake up trying to be a better person. That's good right?

I try to read more to improve my grammar and English reading skills.

I try to paint and draw to improve my drawing and paint like a proffesional.

I try to exercise to get that " Victoria Secret " body.

I try to learn how to cook to impress my family and my " future " husband someday.

I take care of my skin every day just to feel good about my self.

I try my very best in school just to make my parents proud.

But sometimes, all of that is just not good enough. Never..enough.

I have a problem, I know.

And to be honest, lately, I haven't been feeling good, or y'know, good enough. Heck, I don't remember the last time I've felt good enough, beautiful, or just...worth it.

Hmm, I'm just a teenager with problems.

I don't really get the point of this blog entry haha.

Oh wells, just emptying my heart....did that make sense? blehh.

hmph. Now back to PLL.

My IGCSE exams start a week from now.

I'm so scared. I can imagine how hard the exams will be. I'm taking 4 early entry subjects which will come from Cambridge university in England. So the exam will be external, and it's extended.

I regret taking some subjects. Like physics - I'm not doing that though, Physics will be an internal exam ( from the school)

What I'm really scared about is the English, ICT, Biology and Chemistry. I'm taking all of those exams that have count up to 6 hours..I think each. If I fail, I'll have to do the exam again in November. Oh and It's extended ( harder than core)

I kind of regret taking English. I mean, I got a B in my mock exam, but I don't feel like I have strong vocabulary for first Language. 

Ugh, just help me.

I might not post that much during those 2 months. *pretends I have followers*

ed3ooly..